For the last 3 to 4 days I have been waking up every morning crying. I have been single for 30 years and I was rejected by a male acquaintance last week. Just looking for support.
My story (or lack thereof): - 30f
failure at online dating. Matches either ghost after 2 messages or never ask me out. Or flake on dates at the last minute.
no friends IRL. Had some friends from high school but they drifted off during mid-20s as they got married and starting families.
never asked out on a date. When I was a child a boy was dared to ask me as a joke. Never forgot that.
Always ignored or treated like I am irrelevant IRL.
I am so lonely that I mistake friendliness for interest. After getting rejected by my male acquaintance I have decided - NEVER AGAIN. I don't know what to do with myself. At this point I feel like a ugly monster and I am afraid to leave my room, lest I poison the world with my existence. I feel like a monster.