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For the last 3 to 4 days I have been waking up every morning crying. I have been single for 30 years and I was rejected by a male acquaintance last week. Just looking for support.

My story (or lack thereof): - 30f

  • failure at online dating. Matches either ghost after 2 messages or never ask me out. Or flake on dates at the last minute.

  • no friends IRL. Had some friends from high school but they drifted off during mid-20s as they got married and starting families.

  • never asked out on a date. When I was a child a boy was dared to ask me as a joke. Never forgot that.

  • Always ignored or treated like I am irrelevant IRL.

I am so lonely that I mistake friendliness for interest. After getting rejected by my male acquaintance I have decided - NEVER AGAIN. I don't know what to do with myself. At this point I feel like a ugly monster and I am afraid to leave my room, lest I poison the world with my existence. I feel like a monster.

For the last 3 to 4 days I have been waking up every morning crying. I have been single for 30 years and I was rejected by a male acquaintance last week. Just looking for support. My story (or lack thereof): - 30f - failure at online dating. Matches either ghost after 2 messages or never ask me out. Or flake on dates at the last minute. - no friends IRL. Had some friends from high school but they drifted off during mid-20s as they got married and starting families. - never asked out on a date. When I was a child a boy was dared to ask me as a joke. Never forgot that. - Always ignored or treated like I am irrelevant IRL. I am so lonely that I mistake friendliness for interest. After getting rejected by my male acquaintance I have decided - NEVER AGAIN. I don't know what to do with myself. At this point I feel like a ugly monster and I am afraid to leave my room, lest I poison the world with my existence. I feel like a monster.

10 comments

[–] effervescent 6 points (+6|-0)

ah i'm sorry, rejection sucks and i feel like as femcels, we get it from all angles. i know the feeling of not wanting to leave your room all too well. one thing i'd suggest is to find ways to occupy yourself to ease the pain a little, though i know it's hard. i personally like to read, do face masks, cook etc. it's not a substitute for a relationship, but it brings me some kind of peace.

also, you're not alone - a lot of us here can relate to you.

[–] DaiquiriNights 3 points (+3|-0)

Basically the same for me except I cry myself to sleep a lot of nights. You're not alone in mistaking friendliness for interest. I’m just so used to men ignoring or being rude to me that I get my hopes up.

[–] Basic_Snow 2 points (+2|-0)

I didn't go on a date until 26 and that was a failure. Then a year ago I lost my virginity to a guy I met on reddit and he left me to get back with his ex. I will be 35 in June and have no chance of finding a real relationship. I totally feel you on the never again thing. Fuck men. Theh don't deserve shit.

[–] discountwalmart 2 points (+2|-0) Edited

32f here. I can relate so much. The only time someone ever asked me out was in junior high, and they also did it as a joke before running away screaming and laughing. I've never been given a compliment. At this point, I don't feel like a woman or barely a human anymore.

So sorry you got rejected. I hope you're able to wake up one morning soon and feel at least a little bit better.

[–] ToadTok 0 points (+0|-0)

Same. Except I was asked out as a joke in fucking elementary school. Lookism starts young.